This whole situation, the changes I went through and whether I would change anything about it knowing now where it would eventually lead me….
I feel like, perhaps there are two sides to every loss.
Why I Do This: The Importance Of WidowSurvival Coaching
Let’s be real. Life after loss is a rollercoaster no one asked to ride. The world expects you to pick …
In The Face Of Death: Blame God, Retreat, Or Begin Anew?
I’m supposed to be done with Ruth, but something made me want more. The story seems so cut off, and …
Are You A Light Bearer?
So I usually post earlier in the day, but the video of what I just spent my morning doing, (a …
Searching For Faith After Loss: What’s Wrong With Me?
I read and read. Like literally, as soon as I got home this morning, after dropping off the kids – …
John 10 – Widow Walkin’ Into Higher Purpose : Servant Leadership
Has being a widow pushed you to become a leader? ..Do you feel like lessons learned in this arena could be used elsewhere in your life, perhaps even as part of your purpose?
John 14 – My Assignment? What MORE Could God Want From Me?
What is YOUR Assignment? My assignment?!? What MORE is there for me to endure, God? I get it. I understand the overwhelm. I get the fear, the PTSD of it all. Like maybe a fear of what MORE pain or struggle your future could hold. Or maybe the feelings of skepticism when you think about a God that would ask you to carry on through this pain and suffering- and then STILL carry out some mission– after all this? It’s a lot to consider…
Luke 1-2: Never In Their Wildest Dreams
Never in my wildest dreams did I think THIS would be my life. Not when I dreamed as a kid, not when I met him and knew he’d be my husband, and not at the altar when we’d said “forever”. I’d never imagined THIS.
End Of John: It Is Finished.
I have more growing and sharing and crying etc. to do!! I have more to give!! My journey is still ongoing!! But the hopelessness part – the part where I didn’t know how to “bounceback” from life’s body slams — It is finished. And I am thankful.
Luke 6: Solid As A Rock
I’m no longer fumbling in the dark with the problems of those storm clouds. My life is pretty amazing. As awesome as that feels to say – I think the threat of new storms and how that fear affects me – THAT’S the storm I’m battling now. Call it PTSD, if you will. I’m better than I was, and I’ve healed my own way by making sure I’d always be mentally prepared to rebuild from whatever comes next – but I’m still very aware and fearful of the possibility of new pain, new setbacks and God forbid – new grief…